There are moments in your life that are focal points.
A point where you come to the realization you are important and that you must stand up for yourself.
I always struggled with my self esteem.
The first couple of years in my relationship with my husband I was so happy to be with him I gave him everything that I had physically, mentally and monetarily. My world revolved around him and I felt I couldn’t live without him.
We were living together at the time and I was supporting the household. I noticed he kept giving me an attitude and was acting like my feelings did not matter. It also seemed like he did not want to be with me.
It was over a period of a couple days we argued and I kept asking him for the reasons for the attitude.
One day he finally looked at me and said, “Well you have gained quite a bit of weight,”
The room was horribly silent for a few moments.
Then I began to sob uncontrollably. He tried to console me for a moment but I pushed him away.
The tears rolled down my face and I could not control my emotions.
Someone I had given my all to and loved unconditionally truly hurt me.
“Get out of my life right now,” I screamed, “I will walk all over you, someone else will want me.”
He apologized and tried to hold me. I would not have anything to do with him.
It was a mistake on his part but it still broke my heart.
It was a great lesson for me in life.
If someone loves you it would be for the person you are and not for your looks. I began to look more at myself and stop worrying if he was going to leave me.
My mind grasped the concept I was a wonderful human being and I deserved the best a man could give me.
He worked very hard to regain my trust and show the love he had for me.
I still cry when I think of that moment!
But I also feel proud of myself because I learned a lesson that has helped me through my life!